“I’m not a stranger to the dark. . .”
I feel like my WHOLE life I have been battling confidence. I became broken in junior high when I was constantly made fun of because of my weight and my hair (ironic, I know.) I remember coming home EVERY single day crying. Hating life. Hating myself.
I was broken.
Those cruel words destroyed me. Destroyed any confidence I could ever have. And those words still haunt me today. You think that over 20 years later I would have grown out of it, grown stronger. . . I have but I truly believe that my confidence would be so much stronger IF those years were not so detrimental.
“I won’t let them break me down” again.
For FAR too long I have allowed those words, those actions tear me apart, to control me.
For FAR too long I have allowed MY OWN words and thoughts tear me apart and control me.
“I am going to send a flood, gonna drown ’em out.” “I am brave. I am bruised. I am who I am meant to be.” THIS IS ME.
“Look out ’cause here I come.”
I am done. I am done allowing OTHERS and most importantly MYSELF from holding me back from who I am meant to be.
We ALL have our own stories, our own battles that have taken us to hell and back. Losing my hair was my hell. Key word, “was.” No more. No more am I ever going to allow a battle in my life to EVER hold me back from being the person I am meant to be. Instead learn from it.
Losing my hair has opened my world to SO MANY possibilities that I NEVER thought were possible because I held my own self back. I held by myself back from stepping outside my comfort zone because of fear of failure. My hell has made me SO much stronger and empathic to the world around me and I want YOU to learn from your own battles as well!
We must stop allowing “setbacks” in our lives to break us down instead let it build you up.
It has taken me a while through this journey to find my purpose, but I have found it. God put me here for a reason. God gave me Alopecia for a reason.
I am brave. I am bald, I am strong. THIS is what I was meant to be. THIS IS ME.
**I literally cry EVERY single time I hear this song. I feel like it was written just for me.”