Do not let the memories of your past limit the potential of your future. There are no limits to what you can achieve on your journey through life; except in your mind.
Yesterday I was finishing my blog talking about how we all have at least one thing that has happened in our past that has changed the direction of our lives and while I was rereading it I hit a wall.
A concrete wall.
Every single emotion that I experienced while losing my hair completely took over my mind, body and soul. It felt as though a ton of bricks were being piled on top of my chest and I couldn't breath. The image of me standing in the shower with my hands covered in my own hair was on constant replay in my mind and the tears that covered my face then started to cover my face once again.
Sunday was suppose to be a good day. Nothing on the schedule, the sun was shining, the girls were playing nicely and here I was crying uncontrollably. I haven't cried in years. My first year of hair loss literally took ALL my tears away from me; I truly didn't think I could cry anymore.
Boy was I wrong.
The emotional pain was too hard to handle and I wanted nothing to do with the outside world. I literally sat at the kitchen table and cried for hours on end. I kept thinking to myself that this wasn't me. I have moved on from this, I am stronger than this. What is wrong with me?
Then I told myself it is okay, sometimes we need to have off days. I reminded myself (and was reminded from a friend) that it is okay to not be okay. It is OKAY to have an off day.
We are human.
Every person that you have looked up to as your hero, as your strength has had at least one if not multiple off days!
Now here is the kicker. . . we can't allow an off day to turn into more. That is what happened to me this time last year. Depression kicked in. I spent hours in bed. I didn't want to do anything. I couldn't do anything. My mind and body were numb.
Today, I forced myself to get up, to go workout, to go to work, to put a smile on my face and kiss my girls goodbye. I will not allow my mind to be controlled by negative thoughts for too long because I know the detrimental effects it has not only on myself but family as well.
Today reminds me that there may be SO many people around me that are putting a smile on their face just like me hiding what is truly going on inside of them.
Everyone you cross paths with today and everyday is fighting some sort of battle. Be kind.
You are not alone. I am right here with you. We must be conciousensious of our thoughts and behaviors and get help sooner than later. Our mental health MUST top priority in our lives!